I am on Grindr every night. I prefer girls over guys and I had sex with guys a few times but mainly as top and I didn’t like it that much.so I thought I was straight. I just downloaded it again cuz I always loved the idea of bottoming but never enjoyed it or even got it in. and saw this Brazilian guy we texted and he was 4 min away so he came over and I walked to my room, music on from a sex playlist and positioned myself in doggy. He put on a condom and lube and he pressed against my ass it didn’t go in that well. But after some pressing and screaming on my part he got it in. He started fucking me from very slow to so hard. I almost orgamed but he just did before me. Now he left and I am lying in bed rethinking everything. Where to go from here?