Me and my cousin are both 20 years old. We grew up really close, and we are good friends. I have always seen and felt certain hints from things he said and did, but I was never sure if he was gay, and he never fully admitted it. I am gay but I never came out to anyone and don't really display any hints.
This past year we haven't seen each other as much. He was supposedly in love and dating a female friend who I also knew, and we all hung out a couple of times. They recently broke up. Last week, he came over to my place, (I live alone) around 8pm and we sat down and talked like we always do. He kept bringing up how he was feeling down and depressed from the breakup and needed something new.
The whole time while we were sitting down and talking, I could feel him checking me out. I'm always wearing a tank top and some loose shorts. This isn't new, I've noticed him looking at me for long periods of time over the years. After a while, he went to the kitchen for water and when he came back, he sat right next to me on the same couch, which he never does.
We were shoulder to shoulder and the sides of our bodies were touching. I was a bit confused but didn't question it since I didn't want him to feel any worse after everything with the breakup. We had "Our Planet" playing on Netflix while we talked and we both don't care about that show, so no one really gave it much though.
We just kept talking and I could feel him leaning more into me to a point where I was feeling him breath on my neck. At this point I had to ask if everything was fine and he said he just missed having physical contact with someone else which I took with an open mind and said its fine. About 20 minutes in of just talking and slightly watching the TV, he put his head on my thighs facing the TV and asked if it was fine if he relaxed for a bit. My couch has 3 sections that recline, and I was sitting on the far left with my feet reclined up while he slept on my thighs and his body was covering the other 2 closed sections if that makes sense.
He was running his right hand over my legs around my kneecaps and slightly above. I have never been in this situation with him before so I didn't know what to do and just started scrolling on my phone while he had his head on my thighs and finger drawing on my legs. His hands are really soft and it was a bit ticklish for me in a good way.
I began forming a slight hard on from his warm breath and hands. I didn't want to seem awkward and tell him to move so I just stayed on my phone and tried to focus on something else. He then turned his head up and told me to lean down so he can whisper something in my ear. When I did, he kissed my cheek and said "I love you". I said me too in a bromance sense, I never really thought he would be into me like this.
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I'm tired of typing but the story goes on.