Hello, r/gaystories
I’m pity new to reddit but I want to share this story as this was kinda an important milestone in my life as it is for others. For context, everyone in this story is over the age of 18. I am 21 years old and will be turning 22 by the end of the summer. I had been raised catholic as a gay guy and of-curse, the product of being raised in an environment were feeling shameful of exploring or even experiencing any form of sexual acts shaped me to believe I was simply born wrong. As if my god had doomed me from the beginning of ever enjoying a religious vocation or a healthy relationship with my parents.
But religious trauma aside; because of my sheltered home I never really acted out or rebelled in the standard way. I was viewed as the good child by my parents and peers and because I’m on the spectrum I never was able to connect on a personal level to other people, let alone boys my age. Hell, during my teenage years the thought of being desired for my body was what really held me back. All of these factors of having the religious requirement to the church, my parents, and the insecurities about my body was how I saw myself. Undesirable.
Once high school was over I enrolled in classes at my local college. Three years I spent there and in those years I did not once think to actually experiment like i’ve heard other talk about when others were mentioning the joys and adventures of college life. That was until last Valentines day, I was sitting in my room and was scrolling through tic-tok to see the usual post of couples reacting to their parters gifts. My thoughts of love and lingering loneliness had finally struck me as I was reevaluating having pushed off dating as time consuming for a college student.
But now I was older, different to my younger self. Compleded by sheer loneliness and frankly horniness I wanted to finally lose my virginity. And for a closeted guy living in a fairly conservative town that was going to be a challenge. But I decided to use the one tool many gay men resort to when looking for a quick hook up, Grindr. I downloaded the app and quickly made my account. Over the following days I learned about slang used by men on preference. And I also discovered that a lot of married men used Grindr. But after a while I had met a guy who was quite cute and best of all he was only 15 minutes away from town. He was five years older then me and after a bit of talking and sending picks I brought up that I was a virgin which he understood. He was very patient and kind to me and said we can take things slow. We then discussed when the best time to meet up and for then on I would prepare myself until the day came.
I worked out the perfect excuse to sneak out my parents house without them suspecting a thing by just dressing in my work uniform and telling them when I would be back. Then I made sure to follow his instructions with the help of google maps. Finally there was hygiene, The day came and I made sure to clean everything thoroughly, a good shower, shave and brushed my teeth. And when handling my down stairs I used the age old water bottle which i’ve never used before but was helpful.
Dressing the part, I went to my car and put my seatbelt on, pulling out my phone opened google maps to begin my journey. The trip there was quite short as he only lived 15 minutes away in a much smaller town then mine but as I pulled out the drive way I soon felt my heart pump a little faster. I trying to keep my composure as I braced myself for one of the pinnacle milestones every person has gone through. Now, it was my turn. The stories that others have said about their first time and how they were disappointed. Thinking of how to initiate or making sure I focus on how I suck his dick were like a wave of emotions i’ve never experienced. Before I even went I actually asked a few of my friends on some sex advice for a first timer. They were mostly the same as they didn’t know how to give advice, on the grounds that they were straight and that they didn’t know what a gay guy would need. As clueless as they were they were still glad I was going through with it. Bless them.
I will probably finish this in part 2. Sorry if you felt a bit disappointed but please feel free to share your first time.
part 2 [lost my virginity part 2](https://www.reddit.com/r/gaystories/comments/1d4owz4/how_i_lost_my_virginity_in_a_church_part_2/)